Today later on going out with my parent for dinner at town , then at night will be going out with ming hua , celebrate his birthday . so fast the Public holiaday have end . Today can't drink much if not tomorrow cannot wake up for work then no money le , i sped too much money this month le . Need to save money during the net month . Anyway i'm going to change line tomorrow le =) maybe will be changing number . will update when i get home.



You show me how cold you can be , how heartless you're , i'll not forget how you treat me.The message i send you don't even bother to reply me at all .

Time has a habit of slipping away 2:53 AM

25 oct

After work when down to NUH to visit prata , saw himlying at his bed , with his hand and back injury , being cut by some other people , he show me his cut and wow it was damn big , i think it will take a few to recover . Oh victor also when to visit him , but he when there early then me and go off early then me , after visiting prata around going to 11 , head back home and bath and have 1 round of dota with victor they all then cab down to bq to look for my frenz yu xiang . oh i don't remember what the name of the pub but He open 2 bottle of martell for us .


26 oct

Work for half day 11 to 3pm , after that when home and bath , around 6 plus waited for victor and sly to come fetch me and they drive down to bukit timah to have our dinner till 9 plus , was slacking at there think to go where and chatting about our heart problem it seem i'm not the only one who sad . After that head down to bq again , raining bar , but we when missing in highway exit at the wrong road to amk , then end up going back bukit timah again , 45 min of ride , one big round , wasted 1 hour plus to reach bq around 11 plusthen we raech there , and the rest reach there early then us , around 2 plus we when to other place and drink and play , after that i don't know how i end up at my room when i wake up in the morning .

27 oct

Still go out at play and drink again but is my turn to open want and i open a martell $280 ++ , lol abit exp right , at party world , during the night , was suppose to send rena her gift i got for her but , she was out with other guy , watch movie , and it was'nt me =( , whenever i drink i was trying not to think of you but in the end whenever i wake up i'll think of you again and my heart aches , and no matter how i drink i'll still end up thinking about you , why , why i have to think of you when i know it hopeless , you just treat me as a nobody , i'm like an idiot waiting for you , when can i stop thinking about you aleast if you tell me i still stand a chance i won't be that sad , but i know it hopeless and impossible . And i'll not forget the words you say to me " who amito care about your life and what you do " .



I'm the one who love you most , but you left without a word , but when i need you the most , you left without a sign , what your mind thinking ? after what i've done for you ,but you was not trouch at all , i haven change at all , just waiting for your return , when i think of the past , i really wish to hug you again , your beatiful face make me want to see you again ,your sweet smile that stuck in my mind , can't let me stop thinking about you . When i'm alone and sad , you're out there enjoying , so know i set my mind up to give up in you to stop myself from getting more pain then before ,although i'm ain't willing but , because i know it hopeless , yo won't be with me anymore , and this is how our 11month of relationship end .

Time has a habit of slipping away 11:30 PM

Wee getting a new laptop at this end of month , when i take pay i going buy the Dell lastest laptop & getting a new phone too , i guess this month i spend over budget le , lucky got extra pay if not will die , this month really spend alot , on cloth and travel garget and more , but been enjoying life , okay next month got to save money , for my next trip =)

Damn bored now still at my working place , going to bored to dealth soon le .



Sigh the one i love seem to trouble but i don't know how to help her , what to do now , somehow i wish to help her . Sigh but she don't seem to love me anymore , what to do when my heart is still crazy about her ?

Time has a habit of slipping away 3:04 AM

Anyone want go drink tonight ? At RedDot ? Argh ! Or got some place to go instead staying at home thinking of you , i want stop it , when i know you don't even care about our past , those day we been together , it seem nothing to you at all , ya after all this time you know so much people , you must have forget our past . After all it nothing to you , message you don't even bother to reply me , am i stupid or what , wait for you return to my life it only day dreaming only . It won't come true at all .

And day by day my heart start to slowly turn numb . All i just ask it a simple wish but my wish will never come true , And i can't move on because i'm still in love with you .

Time has a habit of slipping away 11:45 PM

Changing phone soon =) at 26 oct & i 'm able to upgrade my phone and my line , looking forward to it , think will be getting HTC touch phone or iphone , which want is better , headache or samsung Omina , but if i get samsung will be the same as my mother , so which phone should i get ?
This is especially for Rena* , i hope for you to return back into my life if possible .

Could you look me in the eye . And tell me that you’re happy now . Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased , You been driving me crazy , I don't wanne waste another moment , I've been waiting for a chance to be with you again , Wonder if you realize I've been waiting till I see it in your eyes , Tell me just what you want me to be , One kiss and boom you're the only one for me So please tell me why don't you come around no more Cause right now I'm crying just for you to return to my life , cause i really need you badly , Cause right now I'm dying outside the door of your loving store , So please tell me why don't you come around no more ,
I didn't know that it was so cold . And i needed someone to show me the way , So lonely inside . All i wanted was somebody who cares If you need me you know I'll be there . 16 oct 2007 .



Baby you know i'm right here wait for you to return to my life

Although our relationship that did'nt last long but the memories will last forever.

And wondering will you return back into my life .
Cause i need you badly more then anyone else .

Time has a habit of slipping away 9:23 AM

The 2rd day and I want to get back singapore soon , trying to get earlyest flight back to singapore because i got myself injury , my right hand is sallow , i got burn by some idiot , who never look out . now my hand is all red and in pain , how i wish to see doctor but in here i don't even know their language , oh well , know i just hope to get back home asap !

oh well today my mum is very angry as well , my brother lost his phone , is a brand new , w980 and it only the 2rd day . By the way his birthday is coming soon next month . And what should i get for him ?


Maybe is me everything i say is'nt deciving , I was crying along the night , just because i'm thinking of you , and i really hope we can be together once more , but if we really be together once more i hope we will work it out . And i promise i won't lie to no more .


I miss you so much , how i wish you're here by myside now !
I'll treasure you with evrything i've
If you would give anyother chance to be with you .
I'll love you with everything i 've
=(

Time has a habit of slipping away 11:19 AM

I'm leaving in 4 hour and i really hope she msg me but , i did'nt even reci until her msg or call , i know it hopeless and so i try msging her but she instead show me attuide =( this is'nt what i really want to know before i go , i just wish to know does we still have a chance or not , just such simple answer i can't even hear until it , my heart start wonder , i got picture in my head , do you understand , without you i 'm a broken heart man , i know it make no sense , how can i move on when i in love with you , day month year , cause if one day you wake up , you'll know where to look for me , i 'm not moving cause i want be here for you , no matter , you fall i'll catch you , i'm always here for you .










maybe one day you'll come back =)

Time has a habit of slipping away 9:42 PM

Today is just another day , dragging myself out of bed , just to go work .
Such long hours of working make me tried & today is'nt really a good day for me .
Aleast i've my dinner with my friend at the end of the day .
After dinner head back home just to pack my bag , tomorrow will be flying off le ,
Will be going over a week plus or more , have to depend how thing work out over there .
It just any other 12 hour before i left singapore , wishing everything will go well over there .


Before i go i was hoping to see until her or aleast hear until her voice , but unforturly she did'nt want pick up my call and have a misunderstanding about my blog . Well aleast when i come back i'll try get her something special .
Time has a habit of slipping away 1:08 AM

This coming wednesday on 15 oct 2008 i'll be flying off , i won't be in singapore for few weeks , i'm going to work , the flight is at 4 pm , so i won't be free on that day , i'm still having a headarche what to bring , my note book , my psp and what else . Will be going with my mother .

Recently in life , have new begining , i'm going to change , no longer the past , about gangster all this it got nothing to do with me anymore , i'm 18 already , start to think about my furture and in next relationship , i'll treasure it with my life , i'm going be a good boyfriend , wheather my past i 'm a bad boyfriend not , please open your eye and see i will be one good boyfriend ,
To freind that beening worry for me , thanks alot , esp victor and slyvster .

Going to back to the corner , where i first saw you , find that i'm missing you , and you'll see i'm waiting for you , thinking maybe you'll come back , i'm just a broken hearted man . Cause the possibility you would ever felt the same for me , why do i keep on running the truth , all i ever think is about you , you got me hypnotized , can't i belive that we can make this into , something that will last forever . rena 'll come back to me if can , i'll miss you so much , is our 1 year soon in , 2 days time .

Time has a habit of slipping away 9:09 AM

Can i really forget the past ? Those time that we 've been together, those sweet memory , it been a month , am i still thinking of you ? After how long we have been together , and we broke up just because of other guy you fall in love with , it since so unfair to me . I know at that time i'll was'nt a good boyfriend , i lie to you just because i want go out with my friend , at that point of time i'm a selfish boyfriend , but when ever i think of it , i realise you did it for my own good .



Please come back to me .

Time has a habit of slipping away 12:31 AM

Now my life is in a messy , my uncle is in the hosiptal all because of me , all i just wish is to see him hurry up recover that all i wish , god please bless him look after him please , he is a very nice person please let nothing happen to him please .



And i really miss her so much right now , she just like in crave deep in my heart already .

will update soon when everything is back to normal .

Time has a habit of slipping away 6:20 AM