Yesterday met up with rena for awhile to have dinner and celebrate her birthday in advance . And got her a present . When to her house for awhile to visit her parent , after that accompany her to her godma house . And that how i spend my day with her . After that when to my godma house was abit late reach there about 11plus , lucky i'm not the last want who reach . After there when to boat quay and drink the balance we had . After that the night haven end when to another pub and they open another want .

FIrst time alex drunkk till like that .

Time has a habit of slipping away 11:05 PM

Happy Chinese New Year to all . GOing to book in soon le . ONly got 2 day to enjoy . Haven visit the rest of the relative . Just visit my mom side this year only . Friday night should be able to book out , still have to go my aunt house . Today when to visit my god father , i feel damn bad , he look weaker then before , and he staying alone . He ask me when am i going to bring him out to eat , at this point of time i feel like i not a good god son . I only buy one hamper for him . And his own family did'nt visit him . Anyway i'm going to bring him out to eat one of this day . May god bless him to recover soon . He going for a operation on 10 of march . Don't know wheater i can take off and bring him there . And this new year without her i feel much more boring , family memeber asking me why never ask her come but i don't know how to open my mouth . Anyway hope nexy year i'll be able to bring her to my realtive house . as my gf again . Next saturday don't know wheater she still going to meet me or not .
anw It about time i going to book in . And one last time i really miss you alot Rena .

Time has a habit of slipping away 2:36 AM

Just finish doing all the check up at Nuh . Spend the whole morning just to see physiotherapy . Now i damn tried eye closing soon . Have to report back to camp at 2pm . Even there a mc it also no use i can't even stay at home and rest . I back having fever again . Damn sick . must be the mec that make me sleepy . Tomorrow there another check up at Nuh again . I now need to hurry back to camp le .






Till there's someone to cry about , someone to fight it out , Someone to say, You're the reason, they breath .Till you can't live without . All this i know i can't life without her in my life .

Time has a habit of slipping away 1:11 PM

Just book out , preparing to go down Nuh to go check up . At 130 in the afternoon have to book in again . Sad hope i can get attand C for today . Now having flu and fever . Luck today can book out , i did'nt bring alot of thing back to camp . Lucky now can come back and pack again . Hope this friday i can book out to attend my friend wedding dinner . If this staurday get RT agian , i'll be going crazy .


I realise i did'nt forget about you , in fact you are the one that deeply stuck in my heart and mind . And i really still love you so much . What should i do now ? Feel like giving up but i can't make it . It been 5 month seen we broke up , but till today i still missing you so much .
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I wait in vain , but nothing has changed , and the words that seem so hard , when you've gone away just stay a little while and hear me say , that I want you here tonight , and I need you by my side , for just one more moment , for just one more moment with you , don't turn away to say goodbye , with each and every word that passes by , like a distant memory , Cause I need you in my blood and soul , I pray to be only yours . I know now you're my only hope . I'm awake inthe infinite cold , When it feels like my dreams are so far , I give you my destiny . I'm giving you all of me .

It so hard to say good bye . memory fading away like a meldoy . All full of romance for someone that you met , Well I held on to let you go , and if you lost your love for me . There was no way to compromise . it’s so typical, love leads to isolation . Some day I might find myself looking in your eyes . But for now, we’ll go on living separate lives . If I could hold your hand . Look into your eyes . Would you try to understand ? The things I'm gonna say . If I could show you girl . How much I feel for you . Would you turn around ?

Time has a habit of slipping away 7:13 PM

Damn sain ! Rt on friday cannot book out again , till yesterday afternoon . Yesterday night when down to bq thank to my campmate for treating me 2 bottle , cause together with him got Rt . yesterday afternoon when down to town to do some shopping with my sister . For a very long time did'nt met until her le . After that when to have sakae sushi and when watch movie . It been quite sometime seen i when last to town . But too bad i was'nt with the person i really wish to be with .

Tomorrow got to go down to Nuh again for check up . Hope everything will be smooth :) there many thing happening around this new year , not everything in smooth hand . But hope everything will be smooth again soon . I really got fuck up by my pc in camp . stress can't take it everyday aim me , for no fucking reason .

Been think thought about the present i want get for rena this year , yesterday when to do some shopping and when to look for her present . This what my bubby told me " If you really think there a chance between you two then it worth buying , If it something not worth buying why still waste those money on getting such a exp present , when you together again also not late to get for her again . " and " can you expect her to be a good gf when you're in camp if you two really patch again , look at her now how many message you message her and she does'nt even bother cause in her heart she does'nt even have you in it anymore . And if she have you in heart already won't meet so many guy " this thing been repeating in my mind . I really start to belive in my friend word . Money can't buy back a person heart and love .

It about time for me to book in already . Hais , what should i do ? Do she even love me or not , OR it time to let go after this 5 month waiting for her meaningless .
Time has a habit of slipping away 1:51 AM

Today want to go down to Nuh again to see doctor but sergent say no matter what to day have to book in if be will be charge as A-wall . Tomorrow then let me go see doctor , i guess is the Mo inside the camp which suck . There no proper treatment at all . Early in the morning sergent call just to make sure i at home and they keep on remind me today at 830pm have to reach company line . And not long ago i just reci another call from my pc tonight 830 must be in camp , if not this week can't book out . I really going to be insane soon . Even sick i have to book in no matter what . Can't they let me rest at home . I just vomited again and cough till my thoat like there a sharp odject stuck in it . Anyway it time for me to book in . Hopefully i can book out this friday night .



Day by day past by the distance between us have drift bigger apart . But i'm not sure wheater i'm still in your heart , do you still have feeling for me , or am i waiting for something that immpossible . Right now i'm still giving a false hope that you'll patch with me . I just bluffing myself that i can wait for your return , i can't stand the acyion you done . The thing you did make me feel sick of you . I don't know how far can i go without you . I'll just take one count at each step .

Time has a habit of slipping away 11:46 PM

Yesterday spend half of my day at hosiptal just to see doctor . The review say i'm having cough and hemoplyale . As chest infection . Have X-ray and blood test . And on the next monday there another review , will have to go for another X-ray and blood test again . Last night my sergent call me and i was'nt at home , was suppose to be at home and rest . But i'm outside with my friend having my dinner till quite late . Have our dinner at SHOKUDO a japanese food bazaar . Have bbq chicken and fish .

Today early in the morning book in just to endose my mc for 3 day from 11 jan till 13 jan that meant tomorrow night will have to book in , Today 8am was suppose to reach camp but i was late for one hour can't wake up the mec i taken make me so sleepy . My Oc speak to me about my review ask me what happen and why was i late so i explain but in the there will be punishment cause in amry they say time is very important so maybe friday i won't be able to book out . Today i miss out the first aid lesson on saturday will have to go on re-course . I really haven get use to the amry life , early in the morning wake up and do 5 bx . And there was'nt enough sleep .

Omg chinese new year is reaching soon and i've not done my shopping yet sigh this make me remember about last year , My ex Rena done all my shopping for me and when i have such a good gf that do everything for me and yet i still never treasure her . I really reget it . After chinese new year my room going on renovantion , i going to get a new lcd tv 32" and a ps3 . and i changing the colour to red . And getting new wall drode . So much thing to be done when there only One and a half day , when ever i book out . Soon her birthday is coming was thinking to bring go oversea in april , but she can't so think better get something else for her instead . Most porperly will get her a bag . But there still a buget for me .

I really miss you , why do you 've to go , now i'm all alone , without you arounding i can't stand anymore , baby come back to me , what will take to make you come back , why can't we just restart again , get it back to where it was , if you give me a chance i'll love you right . I really need you in my life .
Time has a habit of slipping away 5:17 AM

It been 3 week i never update my blog . Been in the amry for 3 week , and tis week is the ippt . Hope everything will be good . And i've since her for a month , i really miss her so much . Recently on each book out there will be alot place to go . This week there pently of thing need to be done , but i don't have the time go do some shopping . This money i'm going to save One thousand , hopefully i'm able to save until it so i can get someone a present next month . From the first book in chrismas till year been going down to drink , even yesterday night was suppose to book in , but i never . On the 1st jan till 5th of jan been going down to drink , i'm damn moody . Lucky thank to my friend henry all this time go down with me and been by myside , it a 6 year friend . Thank alot . In my mind i wonder do she even miss me for a single second , or aleast got think about the time we been together in the past , those memory , i just hope Rena you'll give me one more chance , hope there will be a new begining for us . Anyway i'm going out for lunch , will update when the next book out or when i'm free .







This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life , the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren’t enough , So I’ll be waiting for the real thing,
I’ll know it by the feeling , So I’ll be holding my own breath,

Someone to love with my life in their hands Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
I'll change to be a better man then before i 'll prove to you, you the only girl that I love .
I hope you'll patch with me again .

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