Saturday, March 7, 2009
Just reach home not long ago , when down clake quay help alex celebrate before he go in amry . Did'nt spend much cause henry and me share a bottle for him . 6 year of friend everyone have grow up to be more sensible then before . I wonder how life is going to be after army . I really can't live my life without this friend , whenever i down they are there for me . I want to stop drinking everytime whenever i down i'll start to drink . It already became a habit . I'm going to stop blogging cause evrything in here is all sad thing . I want to change ! Every single moment i spend in my blog is when i miss her so much can't meet her and tell her how i feel . But all this will the past . I don't know how to stop loving her . It since my heart only have her can't able to fill another girl in my heart anymore . It still feels like our first night together. Feels like the first kiss. No one can better this. I'm still hold on and you're still the one. The first time our eyes met it's the same. This pain I'm going through. Still feel our best time together . Can't get close enough I'm still holding on. You're still number one in my heart. What is matter my love can't keep her . My heart look for her but she not with me. My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her. Love is so short, forgetting is so long.
It going to be my pop this friday , will be celebrate with my campmate later after it . I guess she won't be coming to my pop , well it does'nt matter , till now i'm still able to live my life without her . Trying to save money for Oct trip to ? Still planning don't know which country to go ? There manythind in life i need to catch up le . This year i won't be celebrating my birthday at all . Cause i find it meaningless . Anyway i going to workhard for my future wheater with you or without you .
There alot of thing i want to tell you , but i don't have the gut to tell you . There so many question i want to ask you but you did'nt give me a chance .
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